That Fear that Pulled at Me

There have been many fears inside me in my lifetime. Most were released when experiencing the miracle of love, yet some still linger, seeded deep from years gone by. The fear that pulled at me the greatest was the fear of being alone, or I should say the fear of not ever having the opportunity of experiencing intimacy again in my lifetime. I hardly ever truly feel alone for I can visit with any one of many individuals I am privileged to have in friendship at moments notice. The alone I am speaking of is the one where you have no one to share intimate moments with in cherishing each other and unpeeling the many layers of love. I have been fortunate to have shared an intimacy once in my life with a man who indeed did love me, of this there is no doubt in my mind. My desire for this togetherness once more is so great, yet I can't settle for any lesser love.

So, I'll remain on my own and continue my studies in search of my higher self and my many purposes in life. As I continue to grow, when I reach that level where it is in both my own best interest as well as the man's, our paths will cross, of this I am also sure.