Standing In The Void

Now that one of my educational programs is coming to a close there are not enough words to describe the experience. And again, to everything there is a season and for everything in this program there is a reason. We didn’t see it when faced with the experience, but upon reflection, the program works!


One wonders why it takes so long to get the format down — well it’s because you have to get yourself out of the way first and some of us took a little longer than others. With each new section, I found myself experiencing breakdowns and then breakthroughs. There were times when I couldn’t repeat a particular sentence in a script we were asked to learn without bursting into tears. But as the breakdowns happen, one by one, you begin to own the format and each section of the script comes alive with part of a memory of the six months of training by people devoted to being a listening for you. The format has taken on new meaning for me and continues to do so each time I review it, section by section.


While I may be known as the “Queen of Story.” I find myself speechless in articulating the gratitude, respect, and love that has grown in my heart for the leaders, coaches, my teammates, and the silent many who stand behind the scenes to make it all possible.


In the last six months, with the support of the program, walls of constriction have been broken through. Those walls once held me prisoner in my own being. My past is stripped now from me where it once confined me and only the memories I choose to hold will be there to reflect on fondly. Now, here I stand, in the biggest void of my life. It’s endless. It’s empty. It’s wide open. I haven’t explored it before. It’s a blank canvas for me to create. It’s full of wonder and awesomely wonderful. It’s freeing for my spirit and gives my soul a glow. It’s my imagination unleashed to create endless possibilities for others and myself. And what an imagination it is! It’s where I found again the laughter and happiness I have been missing lately in my life that now enables me to share joy with others.


As I have said before, I would hesitate to say thank you to any one person, but instead to all that have shared this venture with me, thank you for being some of the major threads in the tapestry of my life that we weave together. Thank you with all sincerity.