Now that you are on the other side, looking back at me, I need to tell you how sorry I am that you were disappointed at times with my humanity. No matter how hard you tried, I couldn’t get to perfection. I can see now that the disappointment was an issue for you and not one that I need to carry around for myself as the truth.
It wasn’t necessarily something I consciously did to purposely offend you, but rather how you were looking at it that caused the disappointment for yourself. There was a time when I thought I could achieve perfection if only I could do all you asked of me. I tried even harder when I saw the look of disappointment in your eyes. I didn’t want to cause you hurt, pain, discomfort, or disappointment.
The only point of view I had at the time was from my inexperienced eyes looking back at your knowing wisdom. You were older than me, experienced, therefore wiser. You were the teachers to a trusting student; teaching about life from your point of view. It didn’t occur to me for one moment that you could be wrong; that your values were sometimes in conflict with my Intuition. Although it was constantly nudging me from within, I found it harder to trust something I couldn’t see than to trust you.
So I took one step back and learned that it is the Teacher within who gives the best information. Only the Source within could possibly know what is the best move along my path. There are other moves best suited to other people and correct for them alone. So, while the moves my Spirit guides me on may not serve another in the same way, these are best for my journey. It was just a little harder to trust what I couldn’t see. I needed to let my other senses learn to take the lead.
Now I know, what we see isn’t always what is real. Our lives are filled with illusions made to simulate reality. We have ample examples of artificial life around us daily. And, it’s what we all agree upon that becomes our reality. So we could agree that the artificial tree is real because we can see it with our eyes. Yet upon further examination we find in reality it is only matter made to look like a tree. It can’t soak up water from its roots it doesn’t even have. It won’t change color and transform with each season. It doesn’t grow, and bring forth new growth year after year. And it doesn’t help clean the air.
Well… I’m five-feet-one-and-a-half so … I guess for the rest of my life I’ll keep showing up short to some! Yet, along my journey, I took two steps forward and ended up somewhere other than perfection. You see, as you take one giant step forward going through the state of unconditional love, you find yourself landing on another large stepping stone as well – it’s a great place called acceptance!
I think, now that you are on the other side, your vantage point might have changed as well. I like to think that you too have come to know acceptance and are now looking at me with the accepting eyes of unconditional love.
I wonder now if the Oneness is perfect as well or if there has been factored in a piece of human being? Why not? Surely the Creator has a sense of humor too! Surely the Creator must have been b-o-r-e-d with perfection. It was then that the Creator saw a need to insert a little humanity, coupled with acceptance. Teach our children well.