There was a time, a couple of years ago, when my thoughts were filled with questions of the possibilities of my many purposes on earth. How would I know what God truly intended me to do? As I look back on those frustrating times, I can see that those questions developed out of a lack of faith in where God was leading me; it was a lack of faith in the self part of my being and not in the God part of my being.
No longer do I question without faith. In my observations, I have seen the pattern emerge, time after time, and know that God reveals the purpose, as it is needed for me to know -- when the time is right I really don’t even need to know the details of why I am doing what God asks. I only know in my heart of hearts it is God doing the bidding so I use my faith to guide me in the direction of God’s choosing. I let go of any ego centered thoughts to discern the truth I need to know and act upon. No longer do I feel a need to validate my purpose(s) with words of rationalization to those who would look upon me to scrutinize my actions.
I see now that the very purpose is its own validation and needs no justifications of the good opinions or perceptions of others. The purposes have taken on their own sense of reverence as well for me for they are not to be used as parlor tricks to amuse the simple-minded. They are my gifts of support, which God allows me to provide for other in healing of the body, mind, and/or spirit wherever and whenever needed.
I now have no need to proclaim their existence and can perform silently, with the reverence God meant them to have for the ones who are sharing the experiences. So now I have begun to focus my energy more quietly in my ventures of the many purposes God has for me; my ego has been nudged aside by God’s unconditional love.