Always And Forever

Thanks again for passing through my life. New treasures unfold daily and all lead back to having been introduced to you. The differences in my life since having met you are numerous. I remember you telling me once how men often face rejection. Although you chose to reject me, I am grateful for the positive outcomes I encountered as a result of the experience. I pray daily that God send someone your way to whom you can show your trusting, loving and comfortable side. I feel so full of life; I can't thank you enough for being the spark that set me a-glow once more. With all that life has to offer I can see how rejection is so insignificant. Had I let rejection influence my outlook in a negative manner I would have been doomed.

I remember the first day we met. There are things I haven't shared with you about that day. Now might be a good time. My meeting you caused me to search and continually question the rationale behind this meeting? When in fact as I discovered in later years there was no rationale - it was just what was so at the time. What plan could be fulfilled by sharing with you? Regardless of my efforts to uncover the answer nothing had helped me. After recurring episodes of becoming frustrated from pondering the question and not finding a clear-cut answer, I found myself right back where I started. Was it an accident that brought us together? I think not, but I'll let you decide for yourself. Maybe the main purpose was for me to experience the ultimate rejection. We have all experienced rejection at times in our lives. The rejections that linger most in our hearts though are from the one we truly loved unconditionally. The ones we will always forgive-- even forgive the fact that they can't bring themselves to love us in return.

If I were to single out one regret it would be that you didn't see a purpose in communicating with me. That thought pops to mind still from time to time. It seemed odd, and a little sad; that I could find so many good reasons for having met you and it appeared you could find none for knowing me. Ego aside, this response from such an educated man was still puzzling to me. I wonder if you saw anything differently because you had known me? I've always felt deeply that if there is any truth in the universe, it is found in growth. I also truly believe that everything and everyone we encounter in life give added meaning and/or purpose to our lives. Did you choose to ignore what purpose I provided for you? If someone else I had known had said they didn't see a purpose -- well, those would have been fighting words and I would have been challenging them!

Would it have been so hard for you to believe in a possibility? Would it have meant that you might have had to believe in me and take a dangerous step and act on those beliefs? If I could see these things then why didn't you unless it was by choice?

It's been some time now, so what have I learned from these years of rejection? A lot indeed! This, and it is most likely the greatest lesson of all. And, because of you, I am now capable of promising to love someone "always" and "forever." There was a time when I would not allow these words into my vocabulary. I was certain that they could not hold true in reality, and that I would be incapable of keeping the powerful promise their very definitions suggested. As I find myself continuously evolving and learning new approaches to life itself, I become more acquainted with not only new methods with regard to life, but also new meanings in these words and how to use "always" and "forever." Before, I had limitations attached to these words -- limitations supplied to me by someone else's beliefs.

In contemplating how so they might pertain to love, I can now understand and see love in a different light. I can sense how the words could relate to my zealous fondness for someone. What was not once for me to know or understand has evolved into this ever-changing reality that gives new life to my being as each new moment unfolds. What a wondrous thing the Universe has granted me. It gives me the very knowledge I have been searching for throughout my life, but only when I am truly ready to receive it for my higher growth and well being.

Today, I have no doubt that my love need not breathe solely in the present and then find it's spirit totally lost in the past to become a frozen memory. In expanding my knowledge I have discovered a formula and designed the blueprint to launch this love energy out into the morrow. It is there I will seed more of my love. I am sending my love energy out into an endless time. To a season when I might not be capable of giving fully the love someone deserves. It will be there then, for me to grab hold and draw it back within my spirit, permitting me to fulfill this promise I create for someone. It will be there also for them to grab hold of for themselves if ever they find themselves in a moment of wishing they had me near.

I am likewise sending my love energy further out into timelessness for yet another season. The season when my purpose on earth is accomplished and I will no longer breathe in my loved ones midst. They will then be capable of drawing my love energy to them merely by conjuring up thoughts of me, and thinking my love back inward, toward their own love energy. I feel confident in the knowledge that I am capable of making this vow to them as I now hold the ability to manifest the blueprint to transform such a possibility into reality. With this promise, they can be optimistic that my love for them will not waver. This pledge I make to love them always and forever, is at this moment so deep and strong within my Spirit. Each time I reflect on the devotion it brings with it, it surprises me that I am experiencing a deeper warmth and totality in my promise. This was a commitment I was unprepared to make in the past. I could not conceive how to hold to my word. Now I can sense and understand.

Once they were merely fantasy phrases, such as "happily ever after," now "always and forever" have become a component of my new reality. I have likewise learned that I am the individual ultimately responsible for creating my own happiness. I am convinced that in a short time I will be adding the phrase "happily ever after" as well to my ever-evolving reality. With regard to having met you, there have been a multitude of "firsts" I have come to experience. Thank you, for this is one of the most cherished gifts I have yet to receive.